Our mind is a funny little thing, it likes to play tricks on us at the worst possible moments.  I think I want to create blog posts, talk about parties, fashion, travel and business, but the only thing I can actually do is sit here staring blankly at the screen, wishing I was back in LA laying on the beach and trying to remind myself to breathe. 

For the majority of this year, my life consisted of sitting in the hospital beside with my dad, dealing with his doctors and trying to heal him through every way possible.  But now, these past 2 months have been spent trying to cope with the loss of him. How do I move on? What do I do now? I'm numb and completely lost. Should I be pressuring myself to figure it out?  Maybe the pressure I always put on myself is the first thing I will get rid of.  I really just think I'm in shock.  As much as I want to be on social media and inspiring you through business tips or pretty designs, I'm just not ready.  Those things are all part of who I am and what makes me happy, but in the big scheme of things, it's not what is important.  I think I need this time out to re-invent myself.  I need to take the time to practice self-love and care and plan for my future. I'm going to decide what I truly want and then make a plan to get it.  Life is too short to be mediocre. When I return back to the blog,  I hope you are still here to follow along as we share this journey together, called life.